And I think you guessed right, if you think it might be God. But if it's peace you want, you may want to think again. There are some strings attached that you may not immediately be aware of.
God gives you a sense of deep peace and resignation virtually impossible to find elsewhere- but with a notable exception. People close to death experience a sense of deep peace and resignation. Getting closer to God, is in many ways much like dying. And this is not an accident. We are told by the Bible that an attachment to the things of this world is evil and leads to damnation. Everything from money, to sex, to pride, to even loving one's family is specifically cited in the Bible as potential sources of evil. In order to be happy in the afterlife, one must give up everything that makes one happy in this life, except God. This is why loving God is like dying- religion is a type of fatalism.
Religion is based on the simple concept that by obeying Gods rules, there will be a substantial reward. Some religions believe that this reward happens while a person is alive, while others- usually the ones which have gone through periods of persecution- believe that one has to be dead and buried before one receives just treatment.
But the world around us can act as a teacher, and it teaches us that there is no notable difference between the amount of happiness a good person receives from a bad person. Murderous child rapists get rich while painting pictures in jail, while some virtuous folk bypass martyrdom as well. Only fairness in the beyond? It certainly isn't here. But neither is it completely and exceptionally unfair either.
The reward must be in the afterworld. But why then has no one returned to give word on the pleasures of paradise? It must be very pleasurable, but shouldn't at least someone have returned to tell us not to fear death? Don't our departed loved ones care about us enough? Perhaps...just perhaps... there is a reason to fear death after all.
Perhaps they can't get back. Perhaps it's not very nice at all. Perhaps they've been abducted. But by whom? By God of course. The one who seems to gain the most by gaining our trust and teaching us to love nothing but death.
It must seem absurd- so frightening that one can't help but think it's absurd. To imagine, that we've been lied to by God Himself. And why? Why would God lie? It's unimaginable... but conspiracy buffs have imagined global powers that control countries- even the world. Though there's no evidence for it, mankind has always thought there's someone watching over them. Or just watching them. Perhaps that watcher isn't our friend at all.
Why not read the Old Testament, and take a good objective look at our "God of peace". How many nations did God command the Israelites to massacre? How many acts of almost-forgotten genocide, three thousand years ago did God demand? God demanded blood sacrifices, God demanded public executions and torture. And He didn't always bother to explain why.
If God is real, what kind of person is He? Look at the world we live in. He created it, and is omnipotent- that means that everything that happens is by his command- everything is exactly the way He wants it to be. Did you cut your finger today? God gave that an OK. God thought that you hurting yourself was a good thing. Did a relative come down with cancer? God didn't mind- they're not that important anyways. God says He cares, but not enough to regularly do anything about it.
Let's get an idea of who God really is. One famous scientist said that God must like insects, because He made so many kinds. Let's look for trends. God likes to see living things die- everything dies. God likes pain- everything living experiences pain and disease. God likes slaves, because in the Bible he demands blind faith and unquestioning obedience.
God is a bully. God hates people worshipping other Gods... in the Bible He says that He's jealous. He must be insecure. Of what?
God is not a nice person. God is not a good role-model. God is not human; He's literally an alien. God is not only confusing, but if you read the inconsistancies in the Bible, he's quite obviously confused. Do you trust Him just because He says that He made you? So did your parents, in a way. Do they know everything about you just because they made you? What if God's the same way?
God seems to give a mixed bag to us in life. There's no consistancy. Sometimes life is good, sometimes bad. Sometimes He lies, sometimes He tells the truth.
But everything will be alright if you love Him and obey his rules. Everything will be A-OK if you just pretend you didn't see through the lies. It's just a test of your faith- not a trick for the gullible. Just go back to sleep. Trust in a perfect God; a God in complete control. Partake of His peace. Just be nice, and wait for your heart to stop.
"I will act against you in wrathful hostility. You shall [be made to] eat of the flesh of your sons and the flesh of your daughters. I will destroy your holy places and cut down your incense stands, and I will heap upon your carcasses your lifeless fetishes...
"I will lay your cities in ruin and make your sanctuaries desolate I shall make the land desolate, so that your enemies who settle in it shall be appalled I will unsheath the sword against you." (Leviticus 26:28-33)
"The Lord sent angelic serpents among the people. They bit the people and many of the Israelites died." (Numbers 21:6)
"And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood." (Revelation 6:12)
"And a fire went forth from the Lord and consumed the two hundred and fifty men offering the incense." (Numbers 16:35)
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